Miracles

There is only one relationship that matters, and that is your personal relationship to a personal Redeemer and Lord. Let everything else go, but maintain that at all costs, and God will fulfill His purpose through your life. One individual life may be of priceless value to God’s purposes, and yours may be that life. ~Chambers

A couple of weeks ago, I was in a difficult place emotionally. I was reflecting upon my life trying to figure out how things came to be. I was sitting in my office and my boss asked me if I was doing okay. I began to cry and said, “this just isn’t what I thought my life would turn out to be.” It can be quite a challenge to accept our lives as they are. We have all endured great disappointment in some way or the other. As I have struggled to know where to go from here, God has prompted me to think about the many miracles He performed in the Bible.

In my opinion, God bringing me back to Jesus healing the sick, feeding the 5,000 and giving a blind man sight was not to remind me that He did perform miracles, but that He is performing miracles. I still believe in miracles, even though my baby’s healing on this earth didn’t take place. I do struggle with the whole idea them, though. I will say that what I have learned about miracles is that they are not always what we expect.

My life is an example of a miracle. When I think about approaching 3 years in April since losing my daughter, I am reminded how far I have come. It has nothing to do with me being a strong or resilient person. I don’t owe my recovery to my son or family and friends. I am here today because God gave me enough strength, comfort and endurance to live one minute at a time. He is the only relationship that truly matters to me. As harsh as that sounds, it is a reality. People will fail, mislead and disappoint me, but God is consistent, loving and truthful. He meets my every need and has carried me through the most dark and horrific circumstances. I am currently watching miracles in other’s lives as well. God has brought some very special relationships into my life this year and I have witnessed His hand at work. I am honored to be a part of watching God’s healing power in the lives of others.

Yes, sometimes my life seems too hard or disappointing in some areas. But, God has also given me a vision for the life I have now, and I want it to be of priceless value to His purposes, which means pushing through the memories of what could have been and pushing toward a life where His purposes are accomplished no matter the cost.