You Never Let Go

“Oh no, You never let go/Through the calm and through the storm/Oh no, You never let go/In every high and every low/Oh no, You never let go/Lord, You never let go of me”

I was reminded once again by Matt Redman’s song You Never Let Go that God never leaves my side and he never gives up on me even when I want to give up on myself. I have to say my life has been calm lately. I have been a bit under the weather and I have used it as an excuse to be slack with my time with the Lord. But, God never lets go of me even when I am distant, for that I am grateful.
I also got some disappointing news a few days ago and God immediately called me to recall Romans 5:3-5 (NIV) “Rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.” I spent two days reciting that verse and darn it, I still felt disappointed. I even held in the tears trying to avoid the disappointment I clearly felt. But, they came (as usual) when I was sharing my news with my Aunt JL. I felt like a failure. God gave me Romans 5:3-5 to memorize. I know it well and struggle with dissecting it and analyzing it daily. Here I had the chance to actually recite it and it change my normal response and I fell flat on my face, AGAIN!
Every time I feel I am strong enough to handle the “bad news” I get (on what seems like a daily basis), I have hope I will respond in a mature and profound way. I have to admit, I have made progress, but it is still one of my weaknesses.
I am so glad God never abandons me (Psalm 23:4) and always comforts me. I am thankful his mercies are new every morning.