Hope

What a wonderful week this has been! Tuesday was such a joyous day! Since I have had so many issues with my past pregnancies, I get to have an ultrasound every month and the tech is so sweet! She always shows us baby girl in 3D. Last month, I could not believe how clear I could see her being that she was only a little over a pound. Now her picture is even clearer and she is 2lbs 14 oz! Bryan and I got to see her suck her thumb, open her eyes and squirm all around. I cannot believe it, but she definitely has my nose and mouth. Bryan confirmed this. I’m sure he is not all that thrilled about the mouth thing since I have a big one, HA! It really has been amazing to watch her grow. I still get all choked up looking at the pictures. She is already so beautiful and perfect. I am so grateful.

Today, my baby boy is 5! I still cannot believe how big he has gotten. I am such a blessed mommy. Wow, he and I have been on a major roller coaster this year. We’ve been through so many changes. This morning after presents, looking through his baby book and baking brownies, I had him sit in my lap so I could pray over him. I began to remember the timing of his birth. It was such a difficult time for me. Actually, when my water broke, I was hysterically laughing as it seemed like the worst time in the world to have a baby. But, God knew the exact day Tyler was to be born. He was such a bright light in the middle of a hurricane of darkness and pain. He continues to shine even to this day. When I think of him, I always remember that God blesses us in the midst of pain and that God brings new life through His blessings. Our circumstances are never hopeless—they might be hard but they are NOT hopeless.

Of course, I cried thankful tears all over Tyler during my prayer. He looked at me like I was a wacko, emotional wreck—boy, he knows me well. Happy Birthday to my sweet boy!