Nothing is Impossible

Luke 1:37-For nothing is impossible with God.

Your prayers were much needed as pivotal to me as I encountered Meredith's fourth birthday.I was somewhat taken back by the amount of pain I felt that day. I don't recall her 3rd birthday being as difficult as this one. It confused me as I believe I was absolutely covered in prayer.

I woke up on the 16th in tears. Not just come and go tears, but a constant stream of painful agonizing ones. My precious son looked at me in distress trying to comfort me. I tried to explain my hurt to him, how it was because his sissy was in Heaven with Jesus and that I missed her so much. He hurriedly ran to the kitchen to get me a napkin to wipe my tears away, and then he tickled my arm. His tender and loving care made me feel so blessed. In that moment, I remembered how good God had been to me. I could have empty arms right now. Tyler was a gift in so many ways. I wish his efforts and comfort were enough, but I knew I had to get to Mer's grave and get some time with the Lord. I wept constantly as I dropped Ty off with a babysitter and drove to the place where my baby girl's body is buried. It was cold but the sun was shining brightly. I sat and stared at the ground; I wept and screamed, "Why?" I remembered the days of having her by my side and feeling complete. I know God performs miracles. I know He can do the impossible. I know God is still a miracle worker; I believe I am living proof.

God always gives me a word of encouragement in times like these. Last year, He told me He would give me a new life. It was a year of "new beginnings" in so many ways. He followed through on His Word; He always does. This year He confirmed what I have pondered and heard many times before. He promised me that Meredith's life and death would draw more people to the Him and His Kingdom than if she had lived a long full life on earth. I believe that God's priority is for us to truly know Him as Savior and King, and Meredith was sent as a missionary to aid in this purpose.

Even though my heart aches for her and all that we could have shared on this earth together, I will rest in the knowledge and promises God has given to me. I will carry these burdens with joy and peace as I trust in Him (Romans 15:13).
On Mer's 4th birthday, I am trusting God more, I am completely committed to loving and believing Him no matter what my future holds. Christ is my One and Only, my best friend, confidant and Heavenly Father. I pray He uses, teaches and renews my strength.

God, renew my strength. Do not let me grow overburdened, help me to soar on your wings, run and not grow weary, walk and not be faint (Isaiah 40:30-32).

Beth