“If God has shown us bad times ahead, it’s enough for me that He knows about them. That’s why He sometimes shows us things, you know--- to tell us that this too is in His hands.” Betsie ten Boom, The Hiding Place.
There is a great deal of fear revolving around having this new vision. The first vision I had was right around the time that I found out I was pregnant with Tyler. I remember distinctly crying on the floor in Meredith’s room. I was frightened by the idea of having two babies so close together, but what made me cry the most was this very thought, “I wonder if God gave me this baby because something is going to happen to Meredith.” I wept at the very thought. Eventually, I wrote it off as a fear and continued focusing on freaking out about have Irish Twins. But, when my vision became a reality in January of 2008, I knew that the image I received standing at Meredith’s crib was not given to me by accident.
Now God has given me another vision and instead of waiting for it to be unveiled piece by piece, I want to direct it. Yesterday’s devotion was written to me… “So often we mar God’s designed influence through us by our self-conscious effort to be consistent and useful.” I am incredibly guilty of this! It is a daily battle to match my fears with God’s truths. My past proves that God has always provided financially, emotionally, and spiritually for my children and for me. Thus, my goal is to once again walk the road of true dependence and ultimate surrender. Prayers are welcome!
“Some knowledge is too heavy…you cannot bear it…
your Father will carry it until you are able.”
Casper ten Boom- The Hiding Place
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